Zen, without so much zen in it
Moments, how they come alive and step forward
Horses, and how they teach, heal, and live
Wholeness, despite abuse, ptsd, and grief

Now that I’m old, I have stories to tell. Some of them are old like me ~ gnarled, twisted stories that smell like dusty bottles of bourbon in the back of the kitchen cabinet. Others are simple tales of ordinary things, tumbling together and making different colors, depending on the light. Then, there are the musings, the looking at things, and how they take on a clarity and focus when you just be still and watch them.

A lifetime of stories, smacking and sloshing like ocean waves against a pier, wanting to be heard, seen, felt. I’ll let them out a few at a time. I’ll offend some folks, I’m sure.

The names are all changed, to protect the innocent and the not so innocent. Where I come from, you don’t make waves and you don’t name names. And another thing… where I come from, you don’t tell your stories. I’ve held on to mine like the last breath before a drowning. It doesn’t seem right.

I remember…


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101 thoughts on “About”

  1. Hey, I have nominated you for the Liebster award. Go to the link below to see the details. Keep up the good work http://wordshaveteeth.wordpress.com/2013/05/18/i-humbly-accept-this-liebster-award/

  2. Anurag Jain said:

    Zen, I did not find a suitable place to contact you. Thank you for liking a post on my blog and you write beautifully. I shall have somethings to learn from you. I know the place where you come from 🙂 There’s no harm holding to your stories. They never were yours in the first place 🙂 It’s good to know you.

    • Anurag, Thank you so much for writing. At the bottom of my “about” section (above) is my email address. It is spelled out so that spambots don’t get it. 😉 I’m delighted that you’re here, and finding something useful. Thank you for the lovely words about telling our stories or holding them. Good to know you too! Be well, ZenDoe

  3. Hi Zen, I found you via Val from stvaltheeccentric, she spoke very highly of your writings…what I’ve read thus far is indeed quite lovely–providing a peaceful calm–thank you….and I love your photographs as I love the hyper zoom aspect but just don’t have a camera capable of such…thank you for sharing

    • Hi, Julie! Thank you so very much for stopping by to have a look. I’m glad that you’re finding something worthwhile here. How kind of you to leave such a nice comment. Hope you’ll be back from time to time. ZD

  4. Hey there! You liked a post on my blog so I wanted to check out your blog and say, “Hi!” I’m so glad I did, because I’ve found your blog to be very calming. I’m one of those people who hurries and strives too much who is always looking for ways to calm myself. I’ve wanted to develop a meditation practice for a long time, but I never seem to find the time to do it. Ugh! I love your blog! You remind me of what’s important. I feel at peace here, so I’m going to follow you. It’s wonderful to e-meet you! Celeste 🙂

  5. WordPress suggested that I might like your blog… I’ve checked out some of your posts (most recently the one about your ill dog) and this about page, and I just love your descriptive language. You have an original writing style that I find refreshing. I wish your dog comfort and you hope that a recovery is in the future. Hope you get the chance to check out my blog an we can become connected. -stefanie

  6. Reading your words, from other times, other moments, brings me back to my present – like the stories any good storyteller shares, they teach, they delight, they move me. I am broken, then mended. I reflect, then journey forth on new paths.

    Thank you for your words, your stories, your wisdom, and your humanity. 😀

  7. Just inquiring that things in life are treating you well. Hoping there is much joy and happiness coming your way. Thinking about you. highonhorses

  8. I’m so glad I found you! I was looking for images of trees in fog and came across one of yours…followed it back to your blog. My lucky day! I’ll visit often ~~ you write beautifully and share such wonderful photos, a virtual feast for my eyes and nourishment for my romantic soul.

  9. WordsFallFromMyEyes said:

    You say you’re old, but you really don’t sound it. I reckon you just think you’re old – or “old” for this world. Lovely ‘About’.

  10. oh, how lovelY to come step into your door! may you too find a dose of fresh plaY in my scribble of shares and doodles.

  11. My equine-minded Zen friend – you seem to have disappeared while I was offline. If by some chance this finds its way to you, please give me a shout and let me know how you’re doing, ok?

  12. I am missing your gentle presence in my experience.

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